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Maybe they should come up a ban not to have exams on Mondays. I hate Mondays....It's the day of the week where you start looking at the long stretch of days ahead of you. I don't remember looking forward to a Monday ever in my life.

Yes I had my Macro paper today.

It was disappointing.
Instead of attempting 5 questions, I attempted 7. Instead of bringing my calculator, I had my rosary, my scapular and a 1.5l water bottle which I managed to finish by the end of the paper. I panicked when I realised I only had to do 5 questions and so I had to make a wise decision. Thank goodness the calculations were easy but still I didn't have the time to finish them. Sigh......So much for being over prepared for a paper.

I miss being spoon fed. Back in JC days, the teachers used to remind us of every darm thing. To bring your PE T-shirt, bring your consent form, bring your recorder.....they didn't have to bother didn't they. I never was given a chance to be independent. I had everything laid out on the table for me at home too. Food, towel, ironed uniform, clean and and nicely made bed, washed panties.....I miss my Granny.

I'm supposed to be an adult but I still feel like a child. 22, 23 or 24, I still feel I'm Mummy's baby girl. Coping with all the responsibilities can get really tiring. Don't you just wish you could go back into the past an relive your childhood days again? I've barely passed my 30's and I'm already wishing. This reminds me of Uncle Rodney. He is in his 50's, divorced and living with his 26yr old girlfriend. He dyes his hair monthly. Jet black. He works as a telemarketer in Marriot. One day, while relaxing after lunch, I enquired about his family. Immediately, the expression on his face changed and all he said was, " If I could relieve life again, I would achieve so many things that I have failed to do." Although the conversation had turned awkward in way, I continued on and asked, "Like what?" He replied, "Achieve not for others but for myself. I always wanted to be a Priest." Irony, considering his girlfriend was a 26yr old hot Vietnamese chick. I looked at him blankly and smiled.....so many thoughts were racing through my head.

The Macro paper was disappointing. I'II suck my fears and face it. I know I won't fail...but I did mention to Luther that I did see something flying pass me in the exam hall. The letter HD...flew flew...away. I'II aim for a D or a credit....and I don't ever want to be in a position where I would regret about anything. It if happens, i'll suck it in, and digest it and smile......I hope I can....