To God be the Glory.

/ 9/29/06

Channel 5 is showing Ghost Whisperer and I'm least bit interested. .

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I'm in a very reflective mood..

You see, the reason why I have a password on my blog is cause I don't like strangers and people I obviously loath reading whatever I have to say or goes on in my life. I am really not comfortable with that. I love my privacy and I will go all means to protect it.

That's also the reason why I don't usually blog about my relationship with Shaun. I'm sure he is also not very comfortable with that. He's the kind of guy who can have a major huge fight with me and not mention anything to his bestfriend although he happens to meet him just after the fight. At times, this character can mean harm to himself and the relationship. It causes communication problems.......
And that's what we are having by the way....

We are going through a rough patch and I totally feel that blogging about it is not wrong or whatever....
It's common for relationships to have communication problems.
I'm sure you've heard of many couples breaking up coz of communication breakdown....
I hope that doesnt happen in my case though.

A long relationship gets stagnant after a while...
Yesterday, I met Navin for dinner and he too shares the same sentiment.....
What else is there to do huh?
I know it's my fault to shout at Shaun and say " You are boring and so is this relationship....!"
I don't mean that....
I say all the wrong things when i'm angry. I say these things because I want to put my point across.

I don't blame Shaun for all that is happening....
I've been reading his horoscope....
and I can't possibly ignore the similarities in his character and wat the horoscope says. Leos are lazy, unambitious and great lovers of fine dinning and music (he is a dj).

These are just some of the similarities I found....
Shaun is always complaining he is tired!!!! It was funny in the beginning.....but now it's disgusting....really.....
But then again, I'm really whiny.......and it can get irritating ......

That's not really the problem here...

Leos are unambitious....that's very true with Shaun...
He is very contented with whatever he has....
-----------------> ME!<------------------
I know he loves me alot and he is very contented...
He has his mentality that I'm never going to leave and I'm going to be there rain, shine or even if he smells like fart...
This is the root of the problem! I need my boyfriend to shower with love for EVER....and not be satisfied. I'm never going to be satisfied....
Which also means that just because you think I'm going to be here forever, you can shout and me, hang up the phone one me and fuckin piss me off as and when you like it or want to.

I can go on and on about this.....
I never usually get a reply for my million questions I ask...
I'm ok with Silence.
I'm sleepy.

Toodles......_

Stumble It!

10:00 PM

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Today is the DAY.....

The DAY, I promised myself that I will start studying for good....

Half and hour into studying, I decided to blog about the DAY.

=]

Those who have been reading my blog for a long time now would know that I always suffer from these attacks especially when it's nearing the examintaions.

Yet again, it's back. I've lost all inspiration to study. Have I become over confident? I dunno...but I just don't like studyin. (Just for now....)

Shaun's sick.....he's having very bad gastirc flu and fever.

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The doc told him to get admitted but he refused. He's back at home......I've yet to speak to him. Hope he recovers soon.

Ayways, a far distant relative of mine passed away. I've got to follow my mum for the funeral. She has already warned me not to bring my digicam along....
So yap....I better get back to studyin..

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I'II make it...somehow I have to.....

Stumble It!

11:33 AM

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/ 9/24/06

Hello darwingSSS!!!

I just got back home and I am so dutifully updating this blog.
Finally met Shaun and spent time with him. My friends told me that Fashion lab was having a sale and so I conveniently got Shaun to meet me in Causeway Point instead of Town...
OM GOSH! The sale is fabulous.....the prices are soooo cheap. Tops are goin for sooo cheap. When I say cheap, there are tops that look not too bad going as low as $5 dollars. But the problem with Fashion Lab is that the tops can be alittle too colourful but there are plenty of casual tops to choose from as well. Best of all, they have all sizes. XS to XXL! The sale is on till the end of this month so gals.......I think you should take a look and I'm sure you will find something you will like for a real goood price.

Anyways, trying to decide on the pair of slip ons to buy from Charles & Keith and not buying any at all, we went to St Anthony's for mass. I was really fidgety today....dunno why la.
Then Lynn and Sharma joined for dinner and we had Steamboat in Loy Kee. The food was great and with Sharma around, there is definatly something he will say that would make all of us burst out in laughter. (He braided his hair....and it looks really good.....with extensions and all...)

I bought myself a pair of shoes......and a really bright red top......

I love my new shoes!!!!

too colourful ah?

Stumble It!

11:17 PM

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*yawn* I feel like its been ages since I slept...
I'm tired but I'm happy I'm tired.
Cause in a very long time this is the first time I'm tired not because I've been working my ass off or giving tuions in a row one after another but I did something different after such a loooong time.

My family and I went for a midnight tamil movie yesterday. It's been ages since we did that and my uncle was the one who proposed the idea. Mummy was against the idea of coming along coz of exams but I managed to convince her with the help of my other cuzzies.

It felt soooooo good doing things that I've not been able to do for ages! I shopped, got my hair done! and had gooood Indian dinner in a fine North indian restaurant. (Lynn's treat. I wuv U!)

Oh I got to see Grisha tooo!
She's grown so much bigger!
Baby gal has started to notice colours and she looks so cute when she sits and watches TV with her big big eyes.

I'II have to meet Shauny later and go for mass...
Here are some pics...Enjoy...

Baby Grisha with Granny....Mummy is missing....

Crying after a bath....

She watches tv! So cute!

She likes KFC just like me!

So adorable!!!!!!!!!

Lynn and her....

Stumble It!

11:20 AM

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/ 9/23/06

I will blog later...............................
Promise!!!!!!!!
I shall not procastinate even in doing this....
I'm supposed to like blogging.........

Stumble It!

10:12 AM

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/ 9/21/06

Hello darlings....
I havn't had the time to blog. I have been working my ass off and giving tuitions. I have to teach for every single day for the next two weeks because the exams are coming soon. Gosh It's tiring and I dun have time to study or even meet Shaun. It's been a week since we met.

I went back to school today to sign some forms.
Saw a quater of my classmates there. Jc, Mariam =], Edward, Luther, Jasmine and Padma. So kiasu! Exams are 3 weeks away.
But it was nice seeing Sho after a long time. Had a quick smoke and chat........I wanna see her kitten so badly...

Kokila only managed to get 2 tix for the Idol finals. SOBZ! I want to go for it so badly.....! No choice lor....must watch from TV.

I so badly need a new pair of sandals and a new hair cut.....this sat!!! I need to shop....so badly!!!

Stumble It!

9:38 PM

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/ 9/16/06

I didnt have the time or the inspiration to blog the past few days.

Let me summarise the events of this week....
I got a JOB!!
Like Finally rite?!
I work for 3 hours a day. From 3 to 5...at Bugis as a telemarketer....
I've worked for two days so far and it's not too bad.....basically I market for AIA and I should be able to convince clients to meet up with the financial consultant (MY BoSS*). If the financial planner clinches the deal, I get 50 dollars out of that. And I get paid seven dollars an hour. Yooohoooooo! I still have my tuitions though....need the extra cash and I can't stop them now. School exams are 2 weeks away.

I've got a bad cold and fever......
Things are much better for me....I dun really have much of a life now. But I'm cool with that. I wanna indulge in my work and stay away from all the mess and nonsence that is happening around me. Lol....I wanna be in my comfort zone.

I dun have school anymore...They gave one month study break. Oh by the way, remember the test I was studying for like a dog? I scored a high distinction for it. I was shocked when Shaun told me the results...and I thank God for his blessings.

I have to rest.
My nose is blocked and my throat aches,

*Agatha, il remember you in my prayers babe* Stay strong!*

Stumble It!

1:58 PM

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/ 9/10/06

Went to church all by myself today. (I'm a good girl.) I've been suprising myself. Really...I used to hate going to church. But for the past 4 months or so, I feel restless if I don't go for mass (church service).

Lately, I've been feeling lost with my spiritual life with God. Like I said, I am suprising myself...
It's so difficult to reach out to anyone. No one, around me, is feelin this way. It's just me. I don't even know how to explain it.

2 weeks ago, I went to church early so that I could talk to one of the priest about this feelin I was having. I told him clearly, that I needed do to God's work....I wanted to be part of the Parish. I wanted to help the Youth around me. I had been doing this when I was a teen. I used to be in Vine and Branches...Spent really good time there. Met nice people that I'm still in contact with till today and best of all, I did God's work.

But the priset gave some lecture with his eyes half closed and made me yawn a couple times. (The conversation didnt work out.)
Now, it's a different story. My point is, why is it so difficult for a Catholic Youth to do something in the community. One of my ambitions to set up a network for the Catholics Youths like me, who want to do play a part but do not know where to go.

I'm sorry if this post doesnt relate to you at all. I understand. You may not be Catholic in the first place. Well, if I ever needed to talk to someone, I don't ave many Catholic friends talk to either. I talk with a Muslim and I understand her....Just as she understands me. It's not about the religion, its about wanting to spend time with God and God loving people.

Stumble It!

9:01 PM

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/ 9/9/06

Do not call me "Ah Pu Neh Neh!"........Esp if you are a child...
If you do, my immediate reply would be, "KNNB CHEE BAI"

And that was it......

Let me tell you the whole story and pls correct my actions if I am wrong..(tag me Baby....growl)...
I so badly wanted to trim my hair on Friday.
So after much discussing with Shazy and Mariam, I decided to go to the Tony & Guys Hair Academy in Bugis. Well, my friends did warm me about the probability of my hairdo screwing up and I was well away that I was taking a risk. But something inside me kept saying that "hey! It's Tony & Guys La!" And so, I dragged Shaun along.

I made in time for the appointment at 4. My student hairdresser, who didnt look like a hair dresser greeted me with a wide smile. (THe fact that she didnt look like a hair dresser worried me. You see, my perception of a typical hair dresser is that she or he, would have a nice hairdo. Nice or not nice is subjective but the very fact that the hair is coloured and obviously brushed and tinted and combed like a million times, shows that the hairdresser is in the profession. Gosh I really don't know if you understand me.)
But my hairdresser had a very normal look. She had china doll fringe and Black long hair....which had a square cut at the back and even her dressing was very casual....Black tee and jeans.....

But I kept telling myself....don't judge a book by its cover.....

Remember, I wanted to trim my hair.....

She took 2 hours to do that...

2 hours!!!!

My ass was aching.....I was bored.....Shaun wasnt around coz he got pissed waitng so long and....the hair dresser, took her own sweet time to do it.......She looked around....chatted with her fellow students.....kept looking into the mirror....and kept looking at me....coz I was staring at her! I wanted cry! When she was finally done, I realised she cut 1 inch of my hair.....I wanted 2! Damit! 2 inches! Is that so diff?

I left the saloon almost bursting into tears and there Shaun was staring at me. Gosh....I had to explain and then cry while he laughed.......or smirked...I dunno which...

But I'm never going back there....and later, I have to go to a saloon.....

We ended the day by watching Little Man with Ramit, Ravinder and Amit...
The movie......is funny....but really mean...
I had a good laugh though....
Got to hit the books soon.......

Ta!

Oh no!
Wait!
I forgot about my Ah- Neh Story...
Ok, so once I reached Yishun, still feeling like fuck, some small kid walks past me, holding his Mummy's hand and shouts, "Ah Pu Neh Neh!"
That's it!
That's enough to make me burn!!!....
I turned and shouted back "KNN Chee Bai" louder then I actually wanted to......
This was meant for the Mother not him....
The child was bearly 6....I'm sure about that....

You see...I've loads of Chinese friends...I have nothing against them...
Personally, racsist jokes don't affect me...
I make them too...
We have to be matured about it...
But it's wrong to teach little children about it...
Can you imagine if every Chinese, Indian and Malay parents are going to teach their infants who can bearly clean themselves after doing their business, racsist names and words....It would be horrible....
Well obviously, there are parents who do that....and the childern grow up to be anti-social....
Nothing can be done about this....Some people will never change.....
And I totally agree what I did, wasnt the correct approach either...
I'II do my part...I'II start off with my Aunty whoes children have a fantastic vocab of racsist remarks or rather words against the Chinese and Malays.....

Fuck U...I'm pissed again...

Bye...

Stumble It!

12:27 PM

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/ 9/3/06

And so its a Sunday and I'm infront of the porch dying with project again....
Ok, its half way done but alot of editing to do....
Projects are such a pain..
They take up 40% of the total marks so it gives one no choice but to strive for it.
I havn't read a book in such a long time...

Oh by the way I realised that my plant flowered. I've been so busy that I didnt realise it earlier.
I'm not too sure of the name of the plant but it's really pretty.

The Tv is too loud and Mummy is becoming a couch potato. Where is my lunch? Please don't tell me its yesterday's leftovers!

I better be going. Got to finish this stupid project...Meet Baby later and go to church!!!!
Ta!

She's so pretty ain't she?

upclose....

My messy table in the porch.....

My very over-grown garden. Mummy is getting the gardener to come soon....... but its the perfect place to ave tea and read....

Stumble It!

11:17 AM

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/ 9/1/06

I am tired...
I've got no inspiration to study..
I'm stuck half way with my project..
And I dunno how to get over and done with it.

Gosh....why has it been so bloody cold nowadays?

Off to bed early for once...

Stumble It!

9:13 PM

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